I recently met someone who changed my life and one of the many things he told me one day as I told him about my day was “That’s not bad news, it’s just news.” He’s right. It’s all about your perspective. It’s almost like how someone can master the angles of pictures of themselves or change the lighting and add a filter. It’s all in how you perceive things.
Well, I don’t know where to start. My life is evolving in a way I do not like and I keep digging myself into a deeper hole because having too many options is creating a wider and deeper hole instead of a real way up and “out.”
It’s funny, as I type this, I’m crying. It’s not any different from any other night. Well, it is. Because tonight, I realized that the one guy I really tried to do right towards is not who I want him to be. I understand, maybe I set my expectations high. But I feel like I have to because he has no ambitions in life but to “make me happy” …I guess. I don’t know what that means seeing that I am the unhappiest I’ve ever been…even worse than 2008. The worse part of it all? I tell him and he still doesn’t understand. This is what people mean when they say “love hurts.”