Every time I log in, my blog is a constant reminder of who I really am. I used to think other people kept my feet on the ground. I used to think where I’m from would lead me to who I’m ‘supposed’ to be because at a young age we learn that ‘fitting in’ and being able to adapt is how we ‘survive.’ That’s when things were so literal and black & white, because 1 +1 always = 2. Only a few of us create our own ideas and create our own worlds that other people WORK to fit into or adapt to. My family and bloodline do nothing but tell me WHO I’m made from.
You’ve distanced me in your mind farther than any distance I could possibly travel away from you.
My mind. My world. My rules. I guess that’s why I love fiction, because sometimes made-up things give us real answers. Books aren’t just distractions from the real world, that’s like saying daydreaming is a waste of time. Daydreaming is more like brainstorming, to me. Reading tells me what’s real and what’s fake. Reading tells me what I’m completely capable of. That’s why I can read blogs forever. Because like books, blogs are just unpublished by people that I think I know. We’re all creating worlds that we think other people can relate to without really saying it. We’re really creating alter ego’s, believe it or not. and without even saying anything, the pictures we post really do say more than a thousand words. In high school I always said reputation is everything, in the world of the internet, perception is everything.
But all in all, it’s my blog; my username and my password that really tells it all. This is my ‘living’ narrative of who I was, who I am, and most of all who I’m going to be. It’s the one thing that shows me I’m ME. Years ago, months back, or even as days go by, my life constantly changes all while staying in place. Everyday, I see more and more reasons why Osomoto is so acceptable in my world and in other peoples realities. It’s because of people like “Sasha Fierce” or “Wolf Haley.” These are parallels I created in my mind that only proves to me that our worlds can be linked. In more ways, we’re all human, just some more well-known than others. We all want to be who we think we can’t be, to the point where we rename ourselves. Majority of us are scared to be vulnerable, because no one likes to be in a position where they don’t know the outcome. No one likes to be compromised. No one wants to get hurt.
In school, it’s easy. We study hard, and get an, A. That’s like me paying someone to think for me. Your world, your mind, your rules.