No one is awake and I myself am wide awake doing things I should not be doing. and you know what, it got me thinking. something I should be doing ALL THE TIME. I don’t remember the last time I really did stop and think.
so, this is the conclusion I have come to: I miss my best friend. and although we live completely opposite lifestyles no one else understands me like you do. I cannot name a single person that knows how I work like you do. I guess what I’m really saying is that I cannot name a single person like you. I don’t know who else I can be a COMPLETE idiot with and know you’ll never tell but even if you did, it would be for fun and enjoyment. I wouldn’t want to get in trouble with anyone else when it comes to breaking the law because I don’t know a single person that would try to lessen my own punishment if not take the full blame. (and even after that, still manage to have my parents love you.) I don’t know who else can relate to me about guys the way you do about girls. I can’t name a single person that is still here after hearing me cry night after night over, one guy. I really don’t know anyone that has seen me at my worse like you have and still sticks around. and although a lot of people see you on the outside living a completely messed up lifestyle, I see nothing but success for you. Your creativity has grown on me and no one else provides me with a better example of living as an art, like you do. and I can talk about you and I all day and how we are perfect but the truth is that I will always regret the time we are not spending together. Like right now, you’re probably at home and i’m writing about how much I miss you when you’re only a phone call away. or worse? you’re actually in town but I am too scared to call.