I can’t believe I fell in love

Summer love definitely made its way to my friends hearts this summer. I’ve seen them all at their best and their worse. It’s so crazy but I learn so much from them and their relationships but at the same time – it’s stuff I already know.

My friends are really good books, no bull shit – their lives are real page turners. I know I carry a piece of them with me everywhere. When it comes to love, I get excited when they find it and I feel it when they hurt. I get it.

I’m going to start with the one thing that everyone thinks should be at the end – the grand finale. Love. LOVE is a fucking beautiful thing. It’s all knowing. Love is something to work towards and work for everyday, it’s a beginning to an end. Love will control you, consume you, and make you think because love IS a beautiful thing. People will hype it up and tell you you’re supposed to feel one way but the truth is – you know how you feel. My advice: Know yourself before you add another person to the equation. Get your shit straight, know what you want, and don’t be afraid to ask for it. The better you know yourself, the sooner you will find love. You will find it in all the right places with all the right people. I just think that’s how the world works – it works for people willing to put in the work and then one day you’re gifted with something great. or fuck it, something magical happens.

Don’t rush. Don’t wait for it. Don’t plan for it. but make a sincere effort. This is where I think you should really gamble. If you’re going to do any kind of gambling in life – do it with love. This does not mean playing with someones heart. Use your fucking head and know what you’re doing but be prepared for when things don’t go your way. Test yourself. Be willing to compromise and sell yourself because if you didn’t know – life is also about sales. Sales and love… Yes, they work together.

Check yourself, before you wreck yourself. [Word is bond!] Failure, embrace it. Learn from it. Take your time with it. Life is all about trial and error, use failure as a checkpoint. I am not saying when two people agree not to be together or things happen unexpectedly that it means failure or that sometimes timing is not right – that is also not failure. I just mean that sometimes, things don’t work out. Be happy it didn’t work out and be glad that you just get another chance with someone else to make it better.

Leave a comment

Filed under Uncategorized

drained

I’ve never been so exhausted before and I know it’s because I’m tired of so many things. Life just drains you but today was different. I was giving away so many parts of myself and pouring it out on paper. I don’t remember the last time I wrote like this. Today, I wrote like it was my job. I dedicated my undivided attention to one thing and still ended up with grammatical errors, shitty punctuation, and run on sentences. My spelling is still what I remember it to be but damn, it’s clear I’ve been out of it. I don’t remember how to properly craft anything anymore. My thoughts are unclear which is why my writing suffers.

Today was that kind of day. I was so exhausted I could feel it in my head. I still can’t think straight.

Leave a comment

Filed under work

Quarter Century

milestones

Leave a comment

Filed under Uncategorized

the way I see it

Great job postings are love letters and interviews are first dates…

Leave a comment

Filed under work

today is the day

This one is for the ladies in my life. The movers and the shakers. The thinkers and the do-ers. The people that inspire and motivate me everyday. The mom’s, sister’s, wives, daughters, girlfriends, and everything in between. The free spirits. My stick girls. My main chicks, someone’s side chick. The mac to my cheese! My ride or dies. My soul mates.

It is easy to get up in the morning when you awaken anxious to make progress towards your dreams. When you’re excited about life, you’ll wake up long before your alarm clock goes off.

TODAY IS THE DAY.

Leave a comment

Filed under work

on performance reviews

I recently started a new job and made it to the part where your job is a series of checklists and the criteria is simple: meet expectations or needs improvement. (I need creativity). Who knew the grind can be broken down to something that simple? Fortunately, for me… I am meeting expectations. (I am learning that exceeding expectations does not apply in the corporate world). Working in HR, I understand the value of performance reviews — I cycled through them for a little over 3 years now. Cycling to be defined as hours of brainstorming, lots and lots of surveys and power points, assessing what’s important and defining criteria, working on budgets, researching competition in the market to stay ahead. I know both sides of them and that feeling like you’re being ‘graded’ fair is difficult, but a challenge I often look forward to annually. It’s one of those things that always makes you think: What am I really doing? What am I trying to achieve?

How do you measure performance?

For me, performance reviews are not often enough. But I am one of those people that operates and thinks I am always being evaluated – so show up, don’t show off. I know I’m young and I have a lot to learn so walking into work everyday scared of my boss is something I am okay with. I need it. Performance Reviews and culture is important, in any size of an organization. You want to be feel valued as an employee and as an employer you want to make sure people know their work is being monitored. No body, nor work should go unnoticed. Going to work everyday shouldn’t be a task. Yes, the idea of a review makes a lot of sense but I assess what I do daily. I put value into everything I do because I never want to come to a point where I’m unsure of what I’m doing. I hate working towards some imaginary goal. I need to know that I have an end result and something or someone is waiting for me at the end but most importantly, I would hate to be exhausted running circles in the same place. Fear a plateau… that’s enough to push me to always perform and deliver.

Leave a comment

Filed under work

morning meditation

If I am not working hard, then what the fuck am I doing?

Leave a comment

Filed under Uncategorized

I don’t mind

Isn’t it sad? There’s people in this world that don’t know how this feels

Leave a comment

Filed under Uncategorized

know who you are

Bad day, at work, crazy boss, crazy or worse
Finger, pointin’, but they, they depend on you
Inhale, exhale, in and out, like a seal
No no, aw yes, smile honey, no stress

Leave a comment

Filed under Uncategorized

lists

If there’s anything I’ve learned about the wed tech industry:

1. Life is too short: if you find someone that makes you happy… just do it, already. Don’t underestimate the meaning of forever, but understand compromise.

2. The only thing that changes after marriage is your last name. I’m traditional, and I believe in the values of a family so I will be changing my last name if/when I get married.

3. Pressure. I am struggling with the fact that young girls and women think they need someone else to make them happy. I’m happy being by myself. I know I can make myself happy. And I hate that there’s even a slight chance that someone can let you down.

4. Sales. I say this all the time: you are your best advocate. Don’t sell out.

Leave a comment

Filed under work